my age of anxiety
it is clear I am an anxious baby — heavily reactive, fearful of new things — I suppose I can take some comfort in the fact that it is because I feel more — but it doesn’t necessarily comport to how I feel about socializing and how I felt about school when I was in it — since I liked the social aspect of school — of course, I felt well-known at my high school, and in college head a strong network of people I knew well — friends — omnipresent and well-known. I remember how I was slow to warm up to LH senior year —
I do worry and suspect that my life is an overlay of myths and clouds that serve to protect me from real unfettered anxious experience.
What do I do about it?