And now we come to the
[Leibniz quote on this being the best of all possible worlds.]
(1) Normal childhood in Middle upper class life. Creature comforts, and the strangeness of intergenerational relationships, death of a great grandfather and his mother’s dark unexplainable at that point sadness and the attempt to explain death through a children’s picture book – e.g., I miss you, Mr. Hooper.
And the strange stirrings of cross gender desire, and his initial fixation and attraction to girls with dark hair.
And then growing up, and learning letters. And worrying he’s not smart enough.